Have really let go of holding on to my pride. I've been voluteering for all work details at work hoping that staying busy will ease my mind. Felt funky today after work-feelings of loneliness. Work was good, just staying busy not really socializing, and the day went by fast. I did not have time to think but I did get uneasy about not asking for help from others; pride.
Being grateful for having a job and an ability to find other work to suppliment my income keeps me going. Thought of a drink today and I quickly dropped the idea for fear of loosing everything and even myself. Sarcasm has to be left behind me and sincere servitude must invade my being if I am to feed off of others in-kind.
Thoughts of regret and anger toward loss of self (today). Trying not to relive and change the past, moving forward.
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