Can't Sleep

Can't sleep again tonight. My mind is just so fixed on past experiences and I just can't find hope for anything. My children are all doing great and my mother seems okay. I am without a home and a job. Every time I fill out an application or resume I regret past jobs I've lost over petty stupid stuff. I was getting some sobriety time and had filled out an application and was looking good then I found out my liscence was suspended. Start all over and took a drink...said some bad things and let some good people down crawled into a stupor and got another public intoxication. FUCK! Christmas is around the corner and I still feel hopeless. I know I am a good person and can do a good job and be accountable but I just don't FEEL good about myself. 

"Give a little bit"

Enter answer here(hear)...

Living

Unconditional Love

I haven't wrote anything for a while. Picked up on "love all, fear not". 

Deactivating my Facebook

I am gonna try this for a while. Let's see if I can coup without my outlet. I have thought about this for sometime and earlier I have had an overwhelming urge to deactivate, unplug and disassociate. The need to stop sharing my intimate thoughts with the world thru social media has been done. Good by for a while, I need a break. 

Found "hello humankindness" website

Self realization often times does not go unnoticed. Perception and intuitiveness can be "joe loudly ". The universe at work in harmony allows my simple human existence pleasure without want, caring without prejudice, and love without harm. To be myself in total confidence thru worldly articulated attitudes, purposed motives and self-serviced misgivings, oh my god I am grateful for just being me.

the thought of 33*...

http://www.sacred-texts.com/mas/md/md20.htm