Wednesday- 6:16 a.m.

I finished my taxes for 2010 and ended up owing 600+ dollars. The first time ever having to owe anything to our Uncle Sam, and I only made 23,000 take home. Well I made arrangements with IRS to make minimal payments @ 25 per month based on my limited income. I called my AA sponsor yesterday, first to talk about my tax issues, but then I shared with him my week off with Oklahoma and drinking (again). Going to a meeting tonight, I don't know what for, I guess to be somewhere. At work there are some die hard hold-outs that refuse to acknowledge who I am. I really don't want their attention nor respect, it just becomes unreal that some people can hold hate all their life. Knowing my own struggle with that fact, I guess being locked-up for that little bit took me into another perspective of being. I learned not to trust nobody and deliberately had nothing for those I did not care for: snobish. I can't break character now, my conscience tells me, my children all have love and respect for me.